we decided early on in our journey that we would only share things when we felt ready and at our own time. so some of the answers that we’ve given to questions over the last few weeks have been… well, mostly half truths. and mostly not the full truth. and honestly, i don’t really feel bad about that simply because IVF/infertility is a very personal thing. that being said, we feel ready to give a big update!Read More
Today, as I was sitting in my doctor’s office having a routine blood draw, another couple walked into the room. I saw the look on their faces and I knew it. The fear. The reality sinking in. The unknown. The worry. The stress. The tiny glimmer of hope, but not too much because nothing else has worked in the past. I knew it because we had been there, in those same shoes, with the same worries, stresses, heartaches, and cautious hopes. As soon as I saw the looks on their faces, there was so much I wanted to say to help them. But as it goes, we were like cars passing one another on the freeway. (I was going to make a “like ships in the night” reference, but then I realized that I’ve never really experienced that) Both headed in our own direction, but ultimately with the same goal: bringing home a baby. This letter is to them. This letter is to you.
I want you to know how proud I am of you. Whether this is your first visit, first round of treatments, first blood draw for answers— I’m proud of you. You’re showing a huge amount of faith, hope, trust, courage, strength and humility right now by asking for help and taking the necessary steps to bring home your baby— even if it means doing really scary or uncomfortable things. You’re stepping into a new world of unknown things that will soon become routine (cough “routine blood draw” cough) and strangely enough, kind of normal. And for that, I applaud you with a standing ovation. I don’t know how long it took for you to call and make that appointment, but the fact that you did that means something.
It means that you’re facing your reality instead of pretending it isn’t happening to you.
It means you’ve recognized that something isn’t right and you’re advocating for yourself.
It means you want to find answers even if the answers aren’t ideal.
It means you’re making plans and efforts to change your situation.
Those aren’t small things. Those are big steps to getting closer to bringing home your babies— in whatever way they may come.
Unfortunately, infertility treatments aren’t 100% effective all the time, every time. They don’t guarantee that your journey ends here. It may take multiple months, even more years of trying. It may require different procedures, protocols, medications and even clinics. But you can do it. The medications have side effects, sure, but it’s not anything you can’t handle. You are stronger than you realize. You can do this.
I hope that as you walk into your next appointment, you know that you have a friend cheering you on. I’m hoping for you, sending you all of the good vibes & sending you all of the baby dust I can muster! You’ve got this, friends!
for the last few days i’ve been feeling pretty meh about all things creative. i’ve lacked inspiration and motivation to create things. but today i decided to just try to be a little more creative than i was yesterday (which wasn’t hard because i had a migraine yesterday that knocked me out for most of the day) and i feel like i was successful! i worked on these pictures of myself— which doesn’t seem that exciting, but actually, it’s way exciting. that wall was white when i started editing today. so that’s fun.Read More
“anything worthwhile in life is always going to feel scary… i think that’s how you know it’s important.” - mckell wilsonRead More
my instagram account got hacked this morning. it was such a bummer because i’ve worked really hard to create content that would let my instagram be a good resource for those enduring infertility, but also so that those who aren’t experiencing it could know how to help their friends. i worked so hard to create captions that were enjoyable to read but also gave good information. i was having so much fun creating fun photos.Read More