wednesday letters: memorial day weekend 2018

the last few months have been a blur. sometimes a good blur & honestly, sometimes the kind of blur where i want to just lay in bed for days, turn my phone off & just never talk to anyone again. i feel like sometimes life really is a series of REALLLLLLY high highs and REALLLLY low lows. and lately, that's how my life has felt. there have been so many FANTASTIC MOMENTS & then also so many moments where i'm just ready to curl up & cry. 

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wednesday letters: i want to be a friend like that.

okay, i'm SERIOUSLY considering just calling these thursday letters because i seriously cannot remember to write them on wednesdays. it's unreal. but i'm not going to do that, because i'm just gonna get my stuff together & do my best to write them on wednesdays. but i digress. 

tbh, this week has been ROUGH. there have been lots of tears over our sweet mackie. however, in the same breath, i have to say that we have been so blessed this week because today will be the first day that we eat dinner at home. our family & friends have really stepped up this week & it has been incredibly humbling. we have been so grateful. i was telling parker the other day that this whole experience has made me realize how i can be a better friend. from the two year olds in our lives to the 84 year olds in our lives, we have felt love from all of you. & we are so grateful.

i've learned that empathy comes down to simply feeling the core feelings-- not necessarily understanding those feelings, but just feeling them. i learned that from 2 year olds and 3 year olds, guys. our nieces & nephews have seriously showed up in grieving with us & i am so impressed by their love. they were sad, simply because we were sad. they all wanted to make sure that we were okay & that mack was okay. their ability to love & feel empathy is incredible. i want to be a friend like that. 

we were given heartfelt & thoughtful gifts. people sent us gifts & notes because they knew we were hurting & wanted to brighten our days, even just a little bit. we're grateful for the meals, the texts, the calls, the gifts, the comments, the prayers, the pictures (our cute nephew painted us a picture to help us feel better, it was so sweet), the time you've spent with us. seriously, we cannot even begin to express our gratitude. i want to be a friend that doesn't just think about sending gifts or notes, but just does that because i'm thinking about it. i want to be the friend that doesn't ask how i can help, but just tries to help by inviting someone over for dinner, taking them dinner, sending them a sweet little gift in the mail or dropping something off to their house. it takes FIVE minutes to do any of those things but i can truly say that it makes such a huge difference. i want to be a friend like that.

like i said, we have been so, so humbled by this experience & even though we miss our sweet pup, we are grateful for the love we've felt & the spirit of kindness that has been shown to us in the last 5 days. & honestly, through our entire marriage. we have seriously been blessed with the best friends & family that this world has ever known. if you're reading this blog post, consider yourself a friend/family, because i'm definitely writing to YOU. you've all changed our lives & we hope from here on out that we can be the kind of friend that you all have been to us. 

wednesday letters: catching up on life

ya'll. it has been a B U S Y last few weeks but we are finally coming through!!! i know i've said this before, but going full-time has really kicked my trash a little bit. 😬😬😬 & honestly, work has been a little bit crazy. but it has started slowing down & i feel like i'm finally getting the hang of things enough to not be working like a crazy psycho until the end of the day, so things are really looking up for us, guys. i am very excited about it. 

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parker recently got a nintendo switch (thanks tax return, we will never be able to repay you... nor do we want to) & he has been loving playing his switch while i've got shoots after work during the week. it's really helped him be more patient with me at shoots which is really nice & i don't feel so bad for taking two hours out of his day for shoots. so i'm real grateful for that little thing. & he seems to love it, so that makes me really happy.

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mack is learning all sorts of new tricks. in the last few months, he has learned what the words outside, let's go, inside, sit, paw, and lay down mean. he started sitting on command a month or two ago, then he learned to paw at us if he wants attention or belly scritches, and just this week, he learned how to lay down on command. seeing him actually learn something is actually so exciting. i get so proud of him when he actually learns something & learns to apply it. 

i've been able to work on my blog & website a bit more & i'm super stoked about that. i've got some fun posts comin up that i cannot wait to share. &&&&&&& i have had time to work on my blog during breaks at work, so i'm not even kidding when i say that i have some fun posts in the works!!! 

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we've also been doing some new stuff with infertility treatments, but tbh, i don't really know what's going on. i mean i do, but i can't really explain it at this point because we moved into a new phase & it's a treatment we've never done before. & we're in a weird spot when it comes to talking about things because it's kind of like a limbo phase. so just hang tight for a while until i can talk about it in more detail. 

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if you've made it this far, i'd love it if you left a comment to let me know what you want to see more of on my blog. i love writing, but i know that readers matter. & i want to write what you want to read. do you like lifestyle best? infertility posts? tips & tricks? tell me all the things!! i want to hear your opinions!!

you're gonna wanna start here

i was talking to a friend the other day & i realized that on my blog, i don't really have a place where i introduce any of the characters that hang out around here. i'm 85% sure that there have been people that i don't know who read my blog. more often than not, you'll find stories of randoms named sadie, parker & mack. but who even ARE those people? are they even people?! well, you've come to the right place. because here's where i introduce you to me, my cute family & our story.

hi. 👋🏻 i'm sadie. i'm the girl behind the screen & the writer of the stories. i grew up in small town nevada. i'm proud to be from nevada & honestly, home will probably always mean nevada to me. i love the small town life, but have learned to thrive in the city. i love the bustle of city life-- riding the train, going to the airport & driving in traffic all make me so happy. (i know, it's weird, but i seriously love it) i love reading, writing & photography. those are probably my truest passions. i love being outdoors-- especially in the mountains during the summertime. i love a good chick flick/feel good movie & cry almost every time i watch one. my closet is full of neutral colors & striped shirts. & i have an obsession with being intentional & the minimalist lifestyle.

parker was born & raised in utah county. he has the most infectious smile & boisterous laugh out there. he's a huge fan of anything sports related. if parker had to only eat one thing for the rest of his life, he would probably choose bean burritos or hamburgers. he likes being outdoors, sleeping in his own bed (WITH HIS MEMORY FOAM PILLOW), playing any type of game, riding his scooter (not the push push kind), playing pick up basketball games & watching the office reruns on netflix. 

you can read more about our story of how parker & i met, fell in love & got married in these posts
US.
HE DIDN'T ASK ME TO MARRY HIM {OUR ENGAGEMENT STORY}
OUR STORY IN A NUTSHELL | TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY

mack (or mackie as he is so lovingly called at home) is our 13 pound, 8 month old toy poodle. he is so, so smart & loves humans more than other dogs. he thinks he's a big dog, but is scared of loud noises, actual big dogs & cardboard boxes. (🤷🏼‍♀️) mackie loves to play fetch & tug-of-war. he knows that he gets called a good boy & gets treats when he sits on command. he recently learned to lay down AND give high fives or paw if he wants belly rubs (& takes advantage of the fact that we can't say no to him right now because he's still learning). mackie is the goodest good boy around & we are so glad he is a part of our family. he makes us laugh & teaches us more about unconditional love every single day.

as a little family, we've had a lot, a lot, a lot of ups & a few downs here & again. in our short two years of marriage we've traveled to disneyland, san francisco, st. louis & new york city. we love traveling & experiencing new places together. shortly after getting married, we decided that we wanted our little family to grow, we began trying to have a baby & later found out that having a baby would be a bit harder for us. in 2017, i was diagnosed with infertility & PCOS. we've shared pieces of our infertility journey for our friends & family to read here & here. we are excited for the day that we get to bring a sweet babe into our family & hope that day is soon, but for now we are grateful for every day together, for the love we feel for one another & for our sweet mackie boy who brings us so much joy. 

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having an introduction on your blog or website will help others be able to find you & for those who stumble upon your website, they'll be able to quickly get to know you, your writing style & what's important on your blog. 

what would you say in your introduction post?

wednesday letter: mack

on saturday morning, parker & i were talking about our tiny family. the conversation turned to puppies & dogs. we looked up the puppy barn in american fork & saw that they had toy poodles. guys. TOY POODLES. they were the fluffiest little guys i had ever seen. 

we decided that we wanted one. (WHAT? I DON'T EVEN LIKE DOGS!!!) anyway. ANYWAY. we made our way to american fork. when we got to the puppy barn, we walked in & there were people EVERYWHERE. we looked through all of the bins & saw all of the cute & snugly puppies. and then there they were: the toy poodles. THEY WERE FLUFFIER IN REAL LIFE. we decided right then and there we wanted to take one home. 

they let us play with all three of the toy poodles & we picked mack. he was the smallest of the bunch & was just so awkward. i just loved him. so we picked him & took him home.

mack got to come with us to a photo shoot in logan. his first day with us was pretty exhausting for all of us. but we are getting used to things. we are working on potty training him right now, so please pray that this all happens so quickly & that he learns what the litter box is SOON. (so far, so good though!!)

but here's the thing, my friends. i'm not a dog mom. mack is not a baby. he doesn't fill that void. he's not our child. he's not our "fur baby." he's our pet. and we are glad we have him. he helps keep us distracted & gives us a reason to go outside more often. i honestly never thought i would have an inside dog. (and one day he will be a garage or mudroom dog... sorry mack.) i'm still adjusting to having a dog in my apartment. and he's a fun addition to our family. i'll be honest, we like having the companionship of mack. he does a great job of helping us feel loved & needed. and he sure is a cute pup. so here's a few photos of cute little mack.  

here are a few of the pros of having mack: 
1. i clean a LOT more. 
2. i have to get out of bed by 8am to feed him + take him to the bathroom
3. parker & i go outside a LOT more
4. i actually cleaned our carpet (this will be happening WAY more often too)
5. we spend more time together & less time on our phones/watching netflix/playing games
6. i got to reorganize our living room to make space for mack's new cage that should be coming soon!!
7. we keep our apartment much cleaner because if it's on the ground, it's probably going to be in mack's mouth sooner or later... sooooo NOTHING goes on the ground anymore.
8. we are all DEAD TIRED at the end of the day
9. we open our windows (i also cleaned our windows yesterday. GUYS. CLEAN YOUR WINDOWS. THE DIFFERENCE IS AMAZING)
10. we are just happier because we feel needed & loved.